I’m a geek. It’s why I get loud when I need to defend Hayao Miyazaki films or how, if you mention Lord of the Rings, you’ll have to talk to me about it for the next hour. It’s why I spend most of my spare time playing video games (one of which is set in Middle Earth—go figure) or consuming sci-fi/fantasy books, movies, and TV shows. I used to worry so much about letting my geekiness show, but after I learned not to hide who I am out of fear of the stigma attached, I became a happier person. I figure that if you want to know who I am, you’ll have to be introduced to the geek. You can take her or leave her, but she isn’t likely to change. I am blessed to be married to a geek guy, someone who doesn’t worry that his wife takes it as a point of pride that she can identify the planetary origin of a specific spacecraft from Star Trek just based on its appearance. And I am happy that my parents raised me on Star Wars and Star Trek, let me play on the Commodore (and learn to code a few lines of Basic), and gave me my first box set of The Chronicles of Narnia when I was six or seven, and—possibly unwittingly—my first set of Dungeons & Dragons novels when I was nine.
One of my geeky girl-crushes is Felicia Day, creator of the online show “The Guild” and the Youtube channel “Geek & Sundry”. In this following video, Day (hyping the new season on Geek & Sundry) explores the meaning of the word geek. I’ll just get you started when she brings up the question, “What is a geek?”
As Felicia Day suggests, being a geek is more than just belonging to a specific fandom (i.e. comic books, sci-fi, video games, etc.). A geek is a person who “dares to love something that isn’t conventional.” My weird interests will probably always make me a bit of an outsider, but there’s something more important than all of this that leaves me on the margins of a society like ours.
I’m a geek for Jesus.
Yeah, yeah, that sounds kind of like a trite, t-shirt slogany thing to say, but it’s true. Getting as excited about Jesus as I do about Star Trek makes me an outsider, just as Day suggests. To a certain extent, all Christians are outsiders, all Christians are Jesus Geeks. But sometimes I feel like that geek-as-outsider even within the Church, and not just because I treat imaginary worlds as if they were real, sometimes.
I get really, really excited about things like the Incarnation. I mean, really excited…bouncing in my seat kind of excited. That’s strange for someone as introverted and shy as I am. But when our pastor starts talking about Jesus being alive, right now, in his physical, ascended body, this shy, introverted, self-conscious, white Canadian wants to jump up and shout, “AMEN! PREACH IT, BROTHER!” Which I don’t, because I go to a church largely made up of formerly Presbyterian second-generation Korean-Canadians and I don’t want to give anyone a heart attack. I do it inside my head, though, and then go home and give my husband, bless his patient heart, the sermon/testimony that I wanted to give at church.
This blog might end up being another outlet for those excited, half-baked, emotive geek-outs that I need to share. In fact, I think I need to geek-out about the Incarnation for you, so expect that later this week.